I am a
card-carrying Anglophile.
I absolutely LOVE anything English!
Come to my house
and you will see every sort of London décor possible- crowns, union jack
teapots, and Big Bens.
There are red double
decker buses and quaint English phone booths.
Alex and I are
both half English by descent, and would be thrilled to build and live in a castle
one day.
To fulfill a life
long dream, we are planning a trip to London next summer.
We've brought the kids to Europe twice before, and Alex and I went to London and Paris alone in 2000.
I've been dying to go back and bring the kids with us since then!
My son, Tyler, will
be graduating from college and my son, Cristian, will be graduating from high
school.
To commemorate the occasion- we’ve been planning to do it up
big!
Now the day is
finally here when we can use our frequent flyer miles, decide on where to stay,
and plan our sight seeing agenda.
As the impending
vacation became more and more real, and less of a “someday”- I noticed
something.
I was questioning
my choice to go to England.
I thought, “You
know, maybe it would be fun to go to France, or Holland, or maybe back to
Mexico.”
I started
investigating other cities on other continents.
Then I realized
what was happening.
I was afraid to get what I wanted.
Seriously…I
realized that I was much more comfortable with the idea of spending two weeks and boat load of cash to visit where our
ancestors lived, than the actuality of it.
It was
almost as if it was better to be in a state of wanting than in a state of
receiving.
I found that I am
not alone in this bizarre quandary.
I see clients all
the time that are just about to get what they want, and they start to pull the
emergency brake.
Out of fear. Fear
of what?
Fear of realizing
their dreams.
Fear of success.
Fear of how their
lives will change when they get what they want.
Then what will
happen?
Being on the edge
of a dream coming true is scary, and no one tells us about that.
We wonder if it
will live up to it’s expectations.
We wonder what
will be next once we transition from a state of desire into the state of
receiving.
It’s all about
the chase.
Where do you find
yourself putting the brakes on when you are in serious danger of making your
dream come true?
How do you see
yourself holding back to keep the tension of anticipation alive?
When are you
stonewalling and staying on the outside looking in?
Now that I’m on
to my own tricky game, I’m calling it’s bluff.
We are making the
reservations, and we will enjoy this trip with all the gusto we have.
My family is very
excited about all that we will see and discover.
It’s OK to cash
in your chips, people.
Don’t hoard your
dreams to live them out “someday”.
There is a new
dream just around the corner…
